12 months...She's one!?

I should be in bed but I started thinking about what I was doing this time last year and couldn't sleep so thought I might as well do the 12 month blog. It's raining tonight just like it was a year ago and the memories feel all too real. My birth with Lars was very positive and more relieving than anything -just to have it under my belt. My birth with Roxcy was empowering. I felt that real rush of adrenaline and felt completely high on endorphines afterwards. In my head, I have gone back to that space when I've needed a little pick-me-up or reminder that I can, indeed, do hard things. I was also stunned at the bond I felt with Roxcy immediately. Again, not that I didn't with Lars but I think it might be some kind of powerful female vibe. Never thought of that but, for me and my girl,  it's real.

So, yes she is truly the coolest. She is full on walking these days. It's the cutest because she is a dainty thing but she gets in there and climbs and tumbles and wrestles. She says, "uh oh" but only in the right context. I try to get her to say it just for fun because it's cute but she won't. She gives kisses, those open mouth, drooly kind. She is a babbler. She waves. She giggles. She claps. She's got four teeth. She likes to mimic sounds and wiggle her tongue. She sort of squat dances when music is on. She loves to climb stairs. She has a feisty little grunt when she is angry. She tries to squeeze around the baby gates to get in. She likes anything she can pick up and eat herself--independent, my child?  She especially likes avacado, sharp cheddar, grapes,  oatmeal, all berries, and yogurt. She likes picking things up (like socks off the drying rack) and walking around with them. The other day she dragged around a backpack ALL morning. She loves seeing her brother and they just laugh and giggle like they haven't seen each other in years (not hours). She seems very determined to me and also cuddly, curious, and just so dang cute.

And just for fun I pulled out Lars' pillow to grab a shot of him since this summer felt crazy busy and I didn't get one at his birthday and it has only taken me 3 months to get it. I TOTALLY wish I hadn't stopped doing it this year and think I might pick it back up even if just every other month or so. It's just fun and for everything I don't do, I feel like this is something that they will really like looking back on and so will we. I already do! 

                        

and because this post isn't long enough, here is a little side by side comparison of the wee folk. 

and that is enough for now.